30sumthin

    I know what you are thinking, 7 lbs and girlfriend thinks she is a supermodel…hahahahha…it’s true I look in the mirror and I’m loving myself. I started this thing two-three months back that every time I look in the mirror I’m going to say positive things…kept it to myself cause I thought I was being corny, then one day I was watching “I can make you thin” and the host mentioned that positive thinking is one of the things that everyone should do..on a side note alot of the things he mentioned was pretty logical and I was in the process of doing it …I guess I’m just pissed cause I did not get a TV show …okay I’m just playing…However, I looked in the mirror this morning and I said “ you are one hot mama,” and I did not laugh or think “man, you are psycho”..I truly believed it!….I’ve been working hard on this because I realised a long time ago that if I don’t love myself now, or get over my issues now, losing weight is not going to solve those problems…believe me I know because I found an old diary of mine when I was in my early twenties and a healthy 160 …I was shocked to read that I was complaining that I couldn’t fit into my niece’s clothes (we are 3 years apart)…she is a size 2 ( healthy chick, eats like a horse, just lucky …hate her…nah just joking!). For the record  Iwas a size 8!….Shoot, now I’ll be glad with a size 10!…Sometimes it’s good to become older….it’s just unfortunae that wisdom comes with a price!…so many wasted years of hiding!…At least I’m living now ….this hot mama needs to go prepare for school!